Saturday, December 29, 2007

Feeling blah

That just zipped by too fast, didn't it?

Our Christmas day was nice and relaxing, but everything up to and then after has seemed to be at break neck speed for me. I have so much that I feel was left undone. Especially all the fabric I bought to make little gifts and ornaments and stockings. It's all folded up and some of it is still in the bags I brought them home in. Maybe I'll get it out in September next year, instead of waiting until December to even think about that sort of thing.

My birthday is Monday, and I've been thinking about my age a lot. I know it's just a number, but I feel a LOT younger than 39. Is it possible that this is my last year in my 30's? How did that happen? I can't say I'm depressed about it, but I am feeling a little weird.

So not only am I thinking about some resolutions for the new year, I'm thinking about how I want 39 to look. There's a lot of reflection going on here, people!

I've got the usual suspects, of course... drink more water, lose more weight, get organized, but can I just say, BLECH!

I love what Ali Edwards does every year. She chooses 'one little word' and that is what she tries to cultivate for the year. Isn't that neat? My problem is choosing just one word. I think in phrases, like, Be A Grown Up, or Take a Breath, or Don't Be So Negative or Give Yourself a Break.

I think what I really need is a big do-over.

I need to start fresh with a totally clean and organized house. No piles, no excess. Why do I hang on to so much crap?

I need to go back to my wonderful eating habits and forget these 10 pounds I've packed on since Thanksgiving. (I really, really thought I had a handle on all of that, but evidently my eating monster has not been fully quieted.)

I NEED to start every day having had a full nights sleep. There's nothing worse than starting a new day feeling like the old day is still with me.

Do-over is hyphenated, so I don't think that counts. How about Fresh? Yeah, I think I like that.

Fresh can encompass my house keeping, my sleeping habits, the ability to give myself a break every now and then. Start clean, look forward, stay positive.

Off to bed for me, so I can start off tomorrow... Fresh!

6 comments:

wilsonian said...

Fresh sounds fabulous!
And 39 really isn't so bad :)

Heidi Renee said...

I find it takes me longer than a weekend to de-clutter and simplify my life - maybe that could be a goal for the year - "clean sweep" or some kind of metaphor for those choices - instead of making it a "it all must be done NOW" kind of thing it can be a work in progress. just a thought??

Amy A. said...

But Heidi, I WANT IT NOW! ha ha. I was thinking about making a big list of things I want to accomplish and then just tick them off as I go. I just get mean and agitated if I try to do it all at once. The list might help me stay focused, too. Progress instead of procrastination will be the order of the day.

Thanks, Erin!

Sue said...

What a cool idea. A one word resolution. Why didn't I think of that. You have the coolest ideas. But getting into the spirit of that I think my one word would have to be ......wow this is hard....too much pressure here.... Courageous! I think I need to blog about this. Anyway, 39 isn't so bad. Wait till you hit the 50's. There does come a point where you just don't want to think about it.

Sarah Louise said...

happy belated. and I agree with heidi. a work in progress is much better than "it must all be done this instant." That NOW word always gets me in big trouble.

Sending hugs,

SL

carrie said...

Amy,

I enjoyed this post. I need to organize, too--are you by chance attending the local organizing workshop next Monday?

I like the one-word thing, too. My first year as a hall director my word was "wisdom"--right now it's "hope"--I may post on this and give you a hat tip. Thanks.