I have nerves

I've been especially hungry for two days in a row.



I know it's not real hunger. It's just nerves.



You see, I have a big audition coming up on Saturday. Two, actually. But one I really care about and will break my heart if I don't get. So. I'm hungry.



But today I acknowledge my hunger for what it is and will use it for good and not evil. I will convert it into energy to do my job and get some stuff done, and practice, practice, practice, and we'll see what happens.



At the very least, I won't gain five pounds before my big day. That's a bonus in and of itself.



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Also, my husband said something to me yesterday that rang true. He teaches a speech class and he said he liked it when people stood up there and said what they are with confidence.



For example; someone can either introduce themselves like, "Hi, my name is ___ and I am a writer". Or they can say, "Hi, my name is ____ and I sort of write, like in my free time, I'm not paid for it yet, but I would like to be, but it's not official or anything..." You get my drift.



So, I will stop using words like 'ish'. I actually told someone once that I was an actress and added 'ish' to it. How lame is that?



Here goes... "Hi, my name is Amy and I am a singer and an actress". Of course, I want to qualify that in a million ways, but for today I won't. I will just be confident that in whatever capacity I am those things, that I really am those things!



Feels sort of scary. And brave. And good.



And a little hungry. :)